Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Baby

Raising babies is hard stuff!! Breastfeeding is not super easy. Still using the shield at 6 weeks (Thursday). She just this week sat in her swing longer than six minutes. She hated the car seat but the past few trips has done somewhat better. She is a wild child in the night. We don't know why. She sleeps and eats every four hours during the day. At night she likes to cluster feed...growth spurt feed...comfort and soothe feed, FEED FEED FEED!!! It wears on me. I get mentally exhausted more so than physically.

The hospital bills have begun to roll in. Ugh.

My Wife and I can be short with each other, mainly in the night when there are no solutions to a fussy baby.




Friday, August 2, 2013

Weight

I had my 3 week post delivery check-up yesterday. My OB said I was perfect. My incision looks great and I can take a bath now! He said I don't need to lift more than 20 pounds for another month then I have all restrictions off. My BP was 130/70. My weight was within 5 pounds of my starting weight. I asked the nurse how much I gained total and she said 20 pounds. It was actually a little more than that because I didn't go see the OB until week 10. I had gained about 5 to 8 pounds during that time. I can't deny that it didn't happen...but at least on paper in my medical record it didn't. Ha

I had to get away yesterday. I needed to know that I could escape, that I am not tied to this house. I left and drove down to the river and cleared my head for about thirty minutes. Wow that was great. I think it saved my sanity--especially with my parents visiting last night. They had already upset me due to not understanding text messages about dinner. Ugh. Sometimes I think I was adopted!!

I am working on my Wife's anniversary present. It's not our wedding anniversary but it's the day we committed to each other. I ordered her a custom money clip. It's got the tree of life on the front, and latitude/longitude coordinates on the back of our house. It shipped today so it should be here before 8/8.  I am writing her a long letter telling her what "FAMILY" now means to me, what our relationship now means, and how complete things feel now. I've never felt a part of a family. I am so different from mine. And the fact we have begun creating our OWN family is an amazing feeling.